03/26/2009

I am really slipping on my blogging duties this year.   I finally did get my period, on cd 44.  Chris and I bought a Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor to use for the next 6 cycles.  I don't have much left in me as I have close to no hope left I will ever get pregnant but I know that Chris needs this for closure I guess.  That we really did try everything out there.  I just think going from IVF to the monitor is comical but hey whateves.  I am irregular so I guess besides our 3 medicated cycles we will at least have our timing perfect.  I started using it this morning and it is a lot easier than trying to read the OPKs so thats a plus.

I am done another pound, which isn't great for two weeks but it's not bad either.  The only other thing to report is that I am beat.  I am not sure if I am coming down with something, I am not eating enough or what, but I am totally beat.  I need a nap.

Spotting is the new thing!

I finally did get my period on whopping day 44 this cycle.  I have never spotted before actually getting my period so that's a new thing for me.  At least I will know next time that it's a new normal thing for me.

Finally, the state unviels its plan for us

Our wonderous governor who first pointed out in his speech that state workers take up almost half of the budget in our state had proposed the following

1. 8% paycut

2. No more "state share benefits"- which Chris and I benefit greatly under

3. Raising healthcare premiums

4. State income tax increase for those families making over 60k

5. Oh, and they are building 4 casinos and reinstating sports gambling(which from what I have read is actually an excellent idea- sports gambling, not casinos)

This isn't as bad as it could be.  Depending on what the healthcare premium hike is it looks like we will be losing somewhere around 22% of our total pay.   This is just for next fiscal year.  From what I gather if the economy picks back up we will get more back, if it is still down then we will lose more.  

Now on to the adventures of my wacky cycles.  Day 42.  I think I ovulated on day 31.  A few pink swipes the past few days and spotting after sex but other than that nothing.   Um, yeah.   

Quick Roundup

1. The adoption workshop was nice, but let's face it we don't have 30k laying around.  We don't qualify for most grants because we aren't religious.  We can save up the money maybe in five or ten years.  We could do it quicker, but being poor has never done much for our relationship.  So that basically is over for now.

2. My cycles post IVF have been over 40 days long.  The RE says there is no way that the IVF drugs could have done this and said he could re-do PCOS bloodwork.  Fuck it, really.  I will have my gyn look into it next month.

3.  I have lost 11 pounds.

4.  Chris and I are most likely getting a 20% pay cut some time soon.  The state can't figure out a better way to save money, so screw the state employees.

5.  I clearly need a drink.

03/06/09

Watchman Day!  I will have to admit that I think this movie is going to suck.  This much hype around a movie is never a good thing, well at least that is what my mother always told me.  We are still going out tonight with our friends to see it.  We bought our tickets ahead of time like the dorks we are.  One awesome thing about the Newark theater versus ours is that they have a fandango stand where you can get your tickets.  I always hate that about our theater, you buy them online and then still have to wait in line forever to get them.

I am working out of a different office today.  It is in my town and I love it.  I declined to come here when they opened because I didn't want all of my clients living in the same town as I do.  I think that would cause too much weirdness at the grocery store if they were unhappy with you.  It's so quiet here though that I am totally regretting my decision.   I just have to keep a better look out from now for positions in this building. 

The workout front is going great.  I actually like getting up now to work out where three weeks ago I would have rather stayed in bed.  I have moved on from only yoga to yoga, pilates, and some very low impact cardio.  My body seems to be handling it very well.   My goal for this month is to stay off the scale.  The scale is taking over my life, an awful habit that I picked up when I was a gymnast.  I am just going to keep eating right and exercising without obsessing about the number...or at least until I get my period and it is done with.  I am having some serious bloat issues the last few days and the scale shows it.  Although the rational part of me is saying who gives a shit there isn't anything more you could be doing anyway.

My friend is coming over from DC this weekend!  She is staying the night tonight although since Chris and I won't get home until 10:30 I probably won't see much of her.   She has bridal party stuff to attend to early Saturday morning down the street for us so she is crashing here even though she can't make it to the movies with us.  Then she is coming back on Sunday and we are hitting up the Queenstown Outlets.  I am looking forward to getting some new clothes that actually fit.  I won't go too crazy with the pants in case I go down one more size but I am dying to get at least one pair of jeans that actually fit and look good.  I may also go a little nutty with the winter sales for work tops but who could pass that up.  

Adoption Workshops

We have our first workshop on March 13th in Dover.  This agency is more focused on open domestic adoptions which frankly scare the shit out of me, but I am hoping that if we learn more about it then my fears of the bio mom showing up one day and my child liking them better will go away.  The other agency's workshop is in April and it focuses on international adoption, which is mor what we are leaning towards.   

I also ordered four adoption books today through amazon.com!  I am looking forward to reading them in the upcoming months.  

The first thing we are going to do financially is pay off my car and finish up the house.  If we double or triple the car payments some months it should be paid off in a year and a half tops.  Then the money we were putting towards that will inevitably start going to pay off the loan we are going to take out.  I am ok with that, we will be used to not having that money so it won't be a shock.   I am also super looking forward to our house being done.  Well let's face it, it will never be totally done. For example our kitchen is in perfect working order, but we decided this weekend that we are going to do new countertops.  Nothing fancy or expensive, just new laminate but it will look ten times better then what we have now. 

On the actual ttc front we tried using opks again this month.  hahaha, that was a joke.   I think my hormones are still wacked out from the IVF drugs because I never got a positive and now there is no line at all.  I told DH its just time to get our sex life totally back in order and if it happens it happens.  If we are having sex every other or every third day then you are bound to hit O time every month and that is going to be the end of it.  Him and my parents like to hear lines like this out of me although we all know I don't actually think that it will happen.  

Phew.  

Down 2 more pounds!

I actually had to step off the scale this morning, reset it, and then I got back on to make sure I wasn't seeing things.  I am down 10 pounds total since we finished our IVF cycle!  I was getting frusturated last week becuase the scale wasn't moving but this certainly works for me.   Woot woot!