Coordinator from hell update

After spending the entire weekend flipped out over my IVF coordinator and her wanting to cancel my cycle for a multitude of reasons it seems things are calming down and heading in the right direction. I went in this morning for a progesterone check and spoke with my nurse about my converstaion with the coordinator. After I finsihed my rant she looked at me and said, "this is why we hired someone else to take over her position." My nurse(I go to a satellite office) stepped in today and called the doctor herself on my behalf to get things straightened out.

My bloodwork today showed that I definitely did ovulate, which we basically already knew. My doctor is out for the day but the coordinator is supposed to call me back in the morning and tell me whether I should start the bcp for ten days or if he wants me taking a estrogen/prometrium combo that apparently is a more natural way of suppressing. Has anyone heard of that?

The dip asked me again why I haven't taken the IVF class and I responded for the fifth time because I already did. She then "laughed" and said oh silly I wrote those notes on a different peice of paper. She also wanted to know if she should order my drugs...yeah I have had those for at least a month in a half now. I was also told to use a milkjug for my sharps container since she forgot to order one of those. I was laughing by the end of this conversation because its so obvious she doesn't have a clue.

The IVF nurse just called me back. Yes, I do have a collapsed follie but my E2 is only 45 and my progesterone is 3.3 on day 21. On Monday I had a 17 mm follie and I was told that my bloodwork showed I was on my way to ovulating. She said it looks like I am about to get my period. I told her my cycles have been wacked out since my last IVF and wasn't even sure if I have been ovulating in recent months.

They way she was talking my whole IVF was going to be cancelled and she couldn't even remember us talking about me doing IVF and she wanted to know why I even went in today in the first place. Hello lady I talked to you on Monday and you ordered my meds last month.

Wacky IVF med dream

(First I need you to think of the Good Seasoning salad dressing cruet)

In my dream last night Dh and I took out all of my IVF meds for our first night of stims. I start opening each vial and the vial is a cruet. Then I start to worry about how will I know the difference between my salad dressing and my meds. I think start to concoct a plan in my mind using food coloring so I can differentiate each cruet. Why I didn't just think of smelling the salad dressing is above and beyond me. The alarm then went off which is a shame because I would love to know how the dream me would have solved this issue.

Ovulation Check #1

I went in yesterday for ovulation check #1. The good news is that I am well on my way to ovulating and I go back again on Friday for check #2. I had a 17mm follie on the left which they think will go any day now which was the good news, the bad news was the fluid around my right ovary. Not bad news as in your cycle will be cancelled, but bad news is no wonder I felt like I mack truck hit me this weekend. I found it really odd to be having a fibro flare in the middle of summer, but I am now assuming it was caused by the ruptured cyst. No wonder I was in so much pain and was naseous all weekend long. I even called my friend and asked if I could go in his hot tub because I was so miserable. So hopefully that will have started to resolve itself by Friday and they will see that I have in fact ovulated so I can start the bcp. Not that it matters, but the other good news is that even if I don't ovulate for a few days this cycle was still a "normal legnth" which I am pleasently shocked about. Yay for my body doing something right this month.

08/21/2009

Current meds:
1000 mg of Vitamin C
Dexamethasone
3 mg of folic acid

Things are still moving along smoothly in IVF #2 land! Thank god for little miracles. I go in on Monday for my first and hopefully last ovulation check. I am giving it a 50/50 shot that I will have ovulated by cd17. Stranger things have happened I suppose and the signs were all there this week. Anywho, we have nothing going on in September so it makes no difference if my ER/ET is the second, third, or fourth week of the month in the grand scheme of things.

Chris and I are doing great, nervous of course but great. We are going on a date tonight so I am very excited about that and tomorrow I am going to the outlets with my bff who I haven't spent time with in forever. It's shaping up to be the best week I have had in quite a while.

The only thing I haven't gotten back into the swing of is dieting and exercise since my miscarriage last month, well actually its almost been two months now. I ride the bike every morning but I know I am not burning nearly as many calories as I was when I was doing aerobics plus Chris' foot is hurt so we aren't doing our nightly walks. I haven't gained any weight but I am not losing anymore either. Then I also think I am going to all hopped up on hormones and hopefully pregnant by the end of September so what the difference if I don't lose those last five pounds. Nice excuse Kate! I am really going to try and be good with my food choices this weekend...

Sometimes its best to say nothing at all

A little break from talking about anything IF seemed to be just what the doctor ordered. After last weeks minor blow out I did not bring up IF or our IVF at all and we had a lovely week. Yesterday I crawled into bed and DH said that we can do it this month and that he wants to have babies with me. That's his little token phrase when talking about all things infertility.

Our appointment to check for ovulation is not until next week so we are going to go ahead it now, I restarted my steriods today. My cycles are so long I have no doubt I can get in 30 days before our IVF starts so I am sure it will be all good. Phew. Besides all of you, I want this IVF to be as low key as possible so I have begged Chris not to tell anyone yet. He wants to tell his mother and says there is no way I will keep this from mine so I gave up that fight. His mom takes it harder than I do when it doesn't work out and then I just end up feeling shittier than I already do but he is right if I can tell mine then he can tell his. So, that's that in a nutshell.

Easy Breezy

IVF #2

Current meds
1000 mg of Vitamin C
Dexamethasone
3 mg of folic acid

I go back on the 24th(cd17) for my first ovulation check. I only need to be on the pills for seven days before we start IVF so we are not worried about exact science here. If I haven't ovulated yet she will bring me back periodically based on how my labs look so we can at least get the week of pills in so I am guessing it will be once a week until it is confirmed. Ah, a weekly visit vs. 45 days of lupron. What a beautiful thing.

I am still leery of doing IVF again but this really is the best time this year to do it for us. We have nothing big planned for the month of September/beginning of October unlike the rest of the year when we have stuff almost every other weekend. That in itself is a bonus and will make things much less stressful. Basically there is always going to be the voice in the back of my head...aka fear of another m/c...and I realize it will never fully go away. I know the shots are a peice of cake, my protocol seems like a piece of cake, and thats about as far as I can take it. It's also super exciting though that I could be pregnant in two months and possibly with a healthy baby this time. How crazy would that be.

Thanks for the vibes

I finally got my period plus some this weekend! My bed looked like someone was murdered when I woke up Sunday morning, poor Chris didn't even get a chance to sleep in since I had to strip it and clean it. It was lovely. Anyway it should be over in a few days and that will be that.

The good news is that I had already made an appointment for Monday to search for my missing period so I went in today and we changed it to a day 3 appointment. My antral follie count is around 20(go me!), no cysts, and I will find out later what my FSH is this cycle. I should hear back from the IVF coordinator later today what exactly is going to go on for this cycle since I am not sure if I have been ovulating ever since the last IVF. My cycles have been 40+ days each time so I am not really sure if they are going to start me on stims now as my nurse suggested or if we are going to wait until I ovulate and then start the bcp. I'll update when I hear more.

Where are you period???

Come on body, do something right for me! I know you can handle starting a period, maybe me just typing this will get you going.

In the event that my body doesn't cooperate with me I am back to the RE's on Monday for blood work and an u/s to figure out what is going on. I am pretty sure its just that my body doesn't have its shit straight. I have been getting negative hpts for weeks now so I am 99% sure it has nothing to do with something being left over in my ute but who knows. At least I will know as of Monday. I am wondering what this will do to my IVF since I very well may be completely suppressed as it is. Provera, period, then stims. Well that would be just sweet. I am probably getting way ahead of myself here but who knows, it could happen.

On a good news front, my insurace company is going to pay for my ER visit after I called an complained yet again today. I did have to pay a stop payment fee for a check that I sent but paying 30 for the fee versus getting my refund months from now is worth it to me. I did call the company to tell them I stopped the payment so they won't try and cash it. So all is well that ends well in my book.

Fingers crossed the period either comes this week or is just confused and stalled out.

08/06/2009

First off I really can't believe that it's already August. Where did this year go and why is it sucking more ass than last year?(as of Jan 1st I didn't even think that was possible) This thought lead me to some interesting birthday questions...
What do I wish for when I blow out my candles, throw pennies in a fountain, ect... No use in wishing for a healthy baby, because that would have been the fourth year in a row and well that's just pathetic. Don't wish for anything since it won't come true anyway I suppose? So, in a nutshell those were the thoughts running through my head on my awesome birthday!

I still don't have my period yet, I am praying that everything is ok and I am still not retaining some products of conception. I would hate, hate, hate to have to get another d&c. I have to call next Monday if it still fails to show to set up an appointment.

That's all I got this week!