Since our ttc journey has come to an end, my blog will no longer be an infertility blog. I think my blog is now going to follow me through my 2009 goals for the year. I need some serious changes to take place to get out of this "I hate IF, I hate my body" rut that I seem to be stuck in. Goal #1 is to lose 15 pounds this year so I can get back to my wedding dress weight. Along with that goal, goal #2 is to do some sort of excercise besides walking the dogs everyday. I thought I was going to try couch 25k and even did it one day that I had off of work. The next morning it dawned on me that is pitch black out when I wake up so I was going to have to come up with a new plan. Goal #3 is to work on my self esteem issues that have gotten way worse over the past two years. Finally, goal #4 is to try and figure out what I want to do with myself, career-wise.
Week one:
-I ordered some career books to read through, one having to do with jobs that require travel. I love to travel, but I thought we were going to have kids soon and never even considered a job that required travel.
-I jog/walked Monday, did yoga on Tuesday, and rode the bike on Wednesday.
-Ordered a self esteem book since counseling does not seem to be helping in that arena.
The best thing of the week is that with working out I am not at all sore, athritis wise. It is so nice to be sore from exerting yourself and not from just being me.
I love your goals. Our self esteem does get a hard hit on all of this. Yeay to looking to new ways to fulfill your life. I'm also on a crunch career wise. I'm going to try counseling for a bit as well and see if it helps. I relate to so much of what you wrote, I also have to figure out what to do with myself. Wishing you strenght and courage as you change the focus and goals of your life.
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