Will I ever get what I need?

And what even is that? I have all but given up in the baby making arena. I still have yet to get any sort of clear answer on if I have to take the progesterone or not. My bladder and hooha are still killing me. I have wicked pms and I am ready to have a breakdown at any moment. Things with Chris and I are still off and I am beginning to think I am really just not a good enough person to have kids. Or my bad karma is fucking me, or whatever.

I am just so sick of all of this. Feeling like crap, fighting with Chris, hating my body. That's about all I have for today.